My December

I have to admit 2011 has been one of the toughest years of my life. Although there were happy moments in between, I have been through hell. There were times when I just got tempted to withdraw from everybody and everything, but I chose to put a brave face.

In spite of it all, I am thankful for everything I've been through. I would like to believe that I am somehow stronger; still imperfect but better. I was able to see the people who proved their worth. I would always be grateful to those who stood by me.

December tried to compensate for the rest of the year. I wasn't really hoping for a wonderful 25th birthday or Christmas celebration, but surprisingly, I felt elated. Nothing spectacular transpired. I was just happy. The love people showed was overwhelming. It was enough to overpower the year-long feelings of hurt and disappointment.

I am truly blessed. I love you, December!

+/-

Although you were not permitted to, you managed to break through that sturdy barrier. Once you did, there was no turning back. Everything got exposed. You sensed the vulnerability and so you struck, offering promises you surely could not keep. Was she a fool for believing someone like you?

Plus points for your ego. A deficit for her pride.

Instead of grabbing the chance, you took it for granted. What was your ultimate goal for breaking in? It's damn too hard to decipher.

For a taste of pleasure, she becomes permanently scarred.

She is still picking up the pieces... slowly rebuilding what has been broken. Her scar is simply a reminder to keep moving forward and build something indestructible this time.

Trapdoor

Pride, too much of it or the lack thereof, is a killer. Acting like everything is under control sure is hard. When in eventuality, you're standing on a trapdoor. One move and you'll either escape or just free-fall into a cycle. And then it goes on.

If you're too scared to lose something good, how would you obtain what's better?

Maybe it's time you think about yourself for a change. Because if everything else is gone, who will you turn to?

Happiness is a choice

...

'nuff said.

A Realization

Life is such a freaking pain in the ass. It's so cruel to give you all the confusing elements you can live without. You take a peek. And when you finally embrace them and somehow get attached to them despite your initial hesitation, you get reminded that it's not yours to keep.

Nothing is indeed permanent; isn't it the reason behind death?

When sadness fills your life, you appreciate the people who care for you... love you... accept you... shower you with everything you need without having to ask, no questions asked. In spite of the pain that you feel, you move on.

..slowly.

Oh Cometh Lazy Bug

The unwelcome lazy bug has visited me again. Lurking these past few weeks, it finally invaded my boring hell of a life. No one's complaining, really. There's nothing to grumble about. Let it be. Nobody has ever died of piling work and unfinished tasks anyway.

Life hasn't been kind at all. Heck, I honestly don't give a damn. As I go on with the my hapless routine, I find peace in doing nothing. I somehow find comfort in allowing my mind to shut down, my eyes to stare blankly and my heart to be numb. Gonna free fall out into nothin’ as John Mayer says. Wise man. Precisely my sentiment.

There is a hint of delight somewhere, I'm not going to lie. Just like the uninvited lazy bug, it's slowly creeping in.

Revisiting Enchanted Kingdom

As part of my 3-day vacation, I revisited Enchanted Kingdom last July 30, together with my two siblings and respective partners. hehehe My relatives were also with us. The last time I was there was about eight years ago.

I really have a fetish for amusement parks. It makes me feel like a child again. The bad weather didn't stop us from riding the thrilling rides. All we did was buy ourselves some rain coats. The great thing about it was that the lines were not that long.

When I was younger, I used to be terrified of these rides but I rode them anyway. haha This time, I wasn't that scared anymore. I also didn't feel dizzy. I guess I have already grown. (Whatever!) It was my first time to ride the Anchor's away because people used to scare us, sharing their awful experience. When I tried it, it was actually okay. I even enjoyed it. I think people are just trying to exaggerate to make them seem brave. haha now, that is so mean!

I rode the Jungle Log Jam twice because they failed to take our photo the first time. hahaha Talk about being vain! I have to say I have to regrets since our photo turned out to be really nice. I was so focused on where to look that I forgot how scary the ride was.
The highlight of my fantasy experience was the space shuttle. I have ridden it twice before but I never

I had a wonderful time bonding with my cousins. They are like my little sisters. It still amazes me how we remain close even if we seldom see each other.

I wonder when I would be able to come back. I hope my next visit will be a sunny day. :)